Excruciating Pain: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Jon Wong
Jon Wong

Alex Thornton is a writer and productivity enthusiast who explores the intersection of technology and daily life.